the adult crew members

who are we

who are the adults
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who are the kids

we are the adults of the crew.

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definitions of dissociation <--- this is NEW, as of dec 31, 2006.
please don't be afriad to email us and ask any questions. we will try and help you in any way that we can.

    Di:

  • -I am the actual year of this body
  • -I know the correct year it is supposed to be
  • -I love school, I have gone to elementary, high school and university
  • -I have a lot of memories of school and how I always wanted to be away from Plenty to RJC
  • -I have somewhat neat writing/printing
  • -I'm very borderline Christian. Most of the time I don't believe there is a God and every once in a while I do. So you could say I'm not a Christian, 'cause if there were a god he would have stopped the abuse from happening
  • -I came into being shortly before I was 3 years old. I started to be referred to as Di and it has stuck.
  • -I take the body to groups, therapy sessions.
  • -I go out to mom's, see gramma, do family functions and gatherings
  • -I often sit to the side and let things happen
  • -I work a lot with the computer and internet and email
  • -I work on the website (I know the HTMI)
  • -I write stories, poems, I often write in the journal
  • -I listen to quite a bit of music/radio
  • -I'm not afraid to travel by bus
  • -I can't stand sitting and doing nothing
  • -I read more complicated books
  • -I try to be "artisie" but I'm no good
  • -I switch to other parts of me so often (it's not even funny)
  • -I hate wearing skirts. I like shorts, sandals and a muscle shirt
  • -I grew up going to H*** Ebenfeld Mennonite Church
  • -I know I am a lesbian. I love being around women. Sometimes I even fantansize about women.
  • -I have been involved with Tamara's House since 1995 until 2005.
  • -I finally feel comfortable and something changes and that cause uneasiness in me.
  • -I know there are others in me. It was a coping mechanism.
  • -I want to feel better.
  • -I like temps around +30C (nice and hot!)
  • -I went to RJC and Samuelson was developed to help me be 'neat and tidy'
  • -I love being around dogs. Cats are ok but I'm not as crazy about them like I am about dogs.
  • -I play soccer and I love it
  • -I sing (somewhat)
  • -I'm co-conscious with Diana when she signs anything such as contracts, artwork, etc.

    Diana:

  • -all I do is sign papers
  • -Di is co-conscious with me
  • -I'm a year behind in birthday and the actual year

    Lois:

  • -I'm around 20/21
  • -I have long blond hair
  • -I'm very social. I love talking on phone. Watching movies and t. v.
  • -Quite often look after Davie, but I sometimes doesn't know Davie say.
  • -I do presentations and public appearances, like parties (Anne's)
  • -I'm happy and if not I put on a front so no one will know
  • -I hold a lot of abuse with Edward = mental, sexual abuse, money control, not to go to Tamara's House, not to go anywhere without him knowing.
  • -I print on an angle, but don't mean to.
  • -I like games like solitary, Kaiser.
  • -I have some relation with everyone who is with Tamara House and who Di relates to.
  • -I was shown a bit of sharing thoughts with Di

    Tina: (written backwards)

  • -Ben is writing this for me because I don't know how to write
  • -I have contact with Ben so thank you Ben for doing this.
  • -I am 30 years old.
  • -Around the body's age of 2 I came into being. I hold almost all the memories of when the body was 2.
  • -I am a protector. I don't want harm to happen.
  • -I've never gone to school.
  • -I hate telling my memories to anyone, but they still occur.
  • -I feel very uneasy when I walk.
  • -I want my blanket!
  • -I like stuff animals a lot.

    Ben:

  • -I am a year older than Di and 2 years older than Diana
  • -I also think it is a year in advance than what it is.
  • -I write backwards, but if I'm really PISSED off, I'll write forwards. Backwards is more natural though.
  • -I DO NOT believe in God or Jesus. There just a waist of time and energy.
  • -Of the alters I know in the crew, I decide if its safe for them to be out or not. If it's not, either another alter comes out or I do. Some people would call me the gatekeeper, others say I'm the head alter. I prefer gatekeeper.
  • -I get angry very easily. I hold the anger
  • -I love other women.
  • -I'm a guy
  • -I love HOCKEY! Football is good not the same as hockey. Golf is FUCKING STUPID! I like violent things (sports)
  • -Yes I hurt this body, usually on arms especially when I'm angry
  • -I hate won people don't' need to die
  • -I have memories of abuse especially sexual abuse, time with ED, Marlyn, and Adrian
  • -I was the one that did Tae-Kwon-Do
  • -I jumped off the bridge, and almost another time
  • -I've been around since the beginning of this body's time (no one knew this until now)
  • -I love the words: *sshole, f*ck, Jesus Christ, B*tch (those kinds of words) g*d-d*mn it
  • -I hate it when Shara writes in her foreign language
  • -I'm out a lot of time with Di. Most people do NOT realize it's me.
  • -Di loses most time when I'm out unless I want her to know something.
  • -I lose time when a new one is coming out. I usually know something or one is coming to be when I lose time as well.
  • -Life is POINTLESS and STUPOD!
  • -I do invade a personality's time and space because I do NOT want to be hurt anymore.
  • -I get fucking pissed off at everyone and thing
  • -Suicide is the only answer to life and things that are beyond my control
  • -I hat where we live. I want to live on my own. No one cooking and cleaning for us. Di knows how to do all that
  • -I hate reading!
  • -I hate any relationships because I always get hurt.
  • -I am able to talk to Di the easiest. But she doesn't always want to listen to me
  • -I see double
  • -Di is not assertive as she could be
  • -She is a fucking bitch

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