D.I.D.

there i am.
but at the same time
i am not there.
i am watching from afar
what i am doing
but it is not me.
it is someone else.
that someone has taken
over my body.
that someone is an alter,
for i have been diagnosed
with Dissociative Identity Disorder.
that means i switch
to a different personality
and do things i don't mean to.
many times i have no recollection
of what i did.
i developed it
as a coping mechanism
from the abuse years ago.
now i live with it.
it is a part of me
for i have D.I.D.

july 2002

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