~this image is to represent possibly triggering pages. take care of yourself as you look through these pages ~aloneness
i feel like i don't belongthat no one will understand
i'll be out of the loop
and be left alone in the wasteland.
i have a desire
and i want to belong
but i am afraid
that my desire is lifelong.
i'm afraid of my want
i'll be taking up too much time
someone else could be here
and all i feel is grime.
i'm ashamed of myself
i'm afraid of what i am
and no one will be there for me
and won't give a damn.
will you be there for me
as i face this want?
will you be there for me
instead of voicing a taunt?
my want is to belong and not be alone
alone from inside the heart
and i'm afraid it will
completely break apart.
jan 2005