ashamed

i feel so ashamed
ashamed from the inside
to the out.
i assumed a friend
did something against me
i now know it wasn't
but i feel it is eating my insides.
i am feeling uneasy
have an upset stomach
sleep is unsettling
i am nervous and afraid.
i want to profusely apologize
for what i wrongfully did.
i'm sorry to my friend
i hope she can forgive me
and we can still be friends.
friendship is new to me
and there are trust issues
which need to be worked on
i hope my friend will understand.
i assume too much
and that is a bad thing,
but i am trying to work on it.

jan 2005