i am . . .

i am 3.
i am fondled
by my father.
i am 4.
i am pushed around
by my neighbors.
i am 5.
i am laughed at
by total strangers.
i am 8.
i am raped
by my father.
i am 12.
i am bullied
by fellow classmates.
i am 13.
i am raped
by my father's friends.
i am 16.
i am moving
to a new school and life.
i am 18.
i am dealing with memories
from my haunted past.
i am 19.
i am on crutches
by a suicide attempt.
i am 20.
i am pushed around again
by an abusive boyfriend.
i am 23.
i am diagnosed with
Dissociative Identity Disorder.
i am 25.
i am dealing with more memories
but from ritual abuse.
i am dealing with actions
from all my different abusers.

aug 2003