if there is a god

if there is a god
where was he when i got hurt?
when i was being pushed around?
if there is a god
why can't she stop
all the pain and suffering?
if there is a god
why do people hurt one another
and laugh at the hurt?
if there is a god
why isn't there happiness everywhere
instead of sorrow?
if there is a god
why do i believe there is none?
if there is a god
why doesn't god show its face?
if there is a god
why the hurt, the pain,
the suffering day after day?
if there is a god
why can't i die???
if there is a god . . .

sept 2003