my healing journey

at first i denied all abuse
i had to find positives around me
from friends to family
eventually i ended up in a crises
i became very suicidal
i even jumped off a bridge
i didn't want to deal with life
especially the memories.
i've now begun to accept them
and am working on them
yes, i may go into a crises
but now i have supports
when i go down, they're there
and i am there for them.
i know i'll be dealing with
my memories for the rest of my life
but i'll deal with them
instead of running away.
a main part of my healing
happens right at Tamara's House
to talking, crying and sleeping.
my healing journey
is a forever spiral,
it never ends or stops.

jun 2003